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I am getting sentimental while writing now. It is because I miss her. It is because of guilt. I am seeing her now. She is not real because I know she is not real. She is just my projection who is asking me to write about her. I really don’t want to do this. But I can’t ignore her either.  So let the mind play this game as it likes and let the chips fall wherever they may.

Jun 1, 2012 @ 14:18

I didn’t have anything to write about ‘About’ for some-days. I did create this blog on an impulse. To be frank, I blogged some times ago and I deleted them all out of an impulse. Likewise, I wanted to be a writer. I started writing again out of an impulse and burnt those papers -all out of an impulse. Anyway some written papers escaped my impulsive mood . When I read those after sometimes( like when I came to delete this post, I felt the life in those words ). That is the reason I think why I don’t want to delete this blog. I found a quote from Black Cab Quotes which I found really important for me because if I had the guts to do according to that quote I won’t be sad now. Sherin would have heard then what I wanted to tell her. Now, I haven’t seen or heard from her for the past 6 years. Her two friends, who I think are really close don’t even know where is she or what she is doing now. My request to certain profile in Orkut – who I think is she is not even been accepted. I was pathetic enough to tell my love for her in the friend request. Maybe its is not her . It could be someone else. But if it is her, I can understand that she hates me now. And hate is not a bad thing. It means she cares. Part of my mind is telling now she neither love nor hate me. She don’t care much about that. But I find that I couldn’t forget her because she was the angel who gave wings to fly far away.

Don’t think of something profound to say, just think of something to say!
Katherine & Nick, Insight Consultants

So there is nothing much to say about . This blog is to tell my feeling, my mistakes, my moments, my love and the thing I had for her .I don’t know if I could overcome the pain in my mind. But I think this method is worth a try to be considered as a therapy for this pain.